Soooooo...

Yeah, I haven't updated in awhile. I've...been busy.

I've been dealing with school, hanging out with people, and trying not to kill Max. Which reminds me, I really need to update my class journal. Got my hair done all crazy. 'Cause, you know, I'm all insane like that and it really is weird to see blonde hair in my rearview mirror now.

Japanese has been kicking my ass.

Hell, you know, I have tons of artwork and no bloody scanner to scan it in on. Which, btw, I actually have a fully sketched picture for a_hollow_year and not being able to show it off...is bugging the fuck out of me. 'Cause I actually...REALLY like it. *ees proud.* I've actually been doing physical art. Hell, I even made Jesse something last month. With Sculpey! How fucked up is that? He's fucking adorable though. He's my sushi bunny with his litt-- I'll somehow get a picture of him on a computer. Somehow.

Can't believe I spent almost 50 bucks on supplies for Interactive Art. That shit pisses me off. I KNOW that I couldn't buy a regular soldering iron 'cause I'd just end up burning shit down. So, I had to get one of those cold touch kind. And I am hoping that Max will lend me a photoell sensor. I know the motherfucker has some in his magical tool box of wires 'n shit.

BUT.

Spring Break is coming. ...and I know I have shit to study for and or work on during that loverly break. But Sam's b-day is happening this weekend and I know it's going to get crazy. Stuff normally does around that girl. Love to you darling, really.

Oh. I am totally in love with Star Trek: TNG. Data and Picard now have special places in my heart. Hell, Patrick Stewart had a place in there a long time ago, but...

I'm running out of steam and I don't like thinking about the presentation I'm totally going to wing tomorrow for my first class. I mean, really, I'm talking about a guy with the last name Kac. I immediately think of balls when I hear that name or something rather lewd like that.

God, I want Oblivion to hurry up and come out.

That is all from me for tonight. I need to go and roll around in the bed or something.

WENCHY DOODLE DANDY!

Mood: cynical

So...

I know I haven't updated in awhile. Pardon me for being so damn forgetful. I do love you LJ, it's just there's times when we've need space. Oh, I've been checking up on you from time to time, but I didn't feel the need to communicate until now. You know how our relationship is... No matter what happens, you're always close to my heart. ...and also my fingertips. Whichever body part you want to be close to, really.

I've been working on class stuff lately. Hurting my brain with Japanese and loving the fact that I am messing around in the realm of 3-D now. Wanna check it out? Oh, of course you do. Here's a taste of the first assignment we've had:



It's a chess set. Simple, yes, but I made sure to personalize the pieces. I also animated the pieces having a dance-off and then the entire thing bursting into flames. I don't place chess...

I've been chilling out at Art 6 a heck of a lot recently and been seeing tons of the rather Awesome Scot. Whom I threaten to punch in the uterus quite often. It's all out of love, I assure you. Of course, she could never mean as much to me as you do, LJ. ...okay, maybe I'm lying a little bit about that.

I feel like drawing now, darling. Do take care and I shall miss you. Maybe.

Gayer than a bag of penises.

Mood: hyper

Another semester, another game class, and more concept art.

So, for your viewing pleasure, I give you another quick little piece that I did to get me into the mood. The main theme is spaceships. Enjoy.



Don't worry. They don't bite...they merely laser beam your ass to hell.

Mood: amused

Hmph.

I saw something on the way to class that made me quite angry. Fucking Disney has decided to do a Bambi II. You know, out of all the movies that they've shit on lately, I never thought Bambi would be thrown into the mix. I seriously hope that Walt goes all brain-hungry zombie and eats each and every one of the fuckers that were part of that idea.

Classes have been cool and I know at least a couple people in each one of them.

Yeah, but I just wanted to rant about the Bambi thing.

Fuck Disney.

Mood: awake

I totally wish these were real. They would certainly be something that could keep me interested in WoW.

I'd never seen a man do that many hip thrusts in my life. Where does he get the energy?!

Mood: awake

It's nice not to have to deal with crazy drama.

Seems like it's kind of happening around me though. I mean, c'mon, there's crazy amounts of drama in the Dears world right now. For those of you who don't know what Dears is, well, it's a big ol' Gackt fan club. I don't really pay all that much attention anymore, but one person feels like their life has reached an all-time low thanks to it. I mean, their year was shitty enough already and I don't blame them. But, anywho, drama. If Jesse and myself can avoid it, we're going to help someone hopefully dodge as much drama as possible this weekend. Let's hope that goes well.

Yeah, Jesse is back. I'm quite happy about that as I can be.

If feels like I didn't do anything while he was gone, but I know I did. I saw my family, had pictures taken which I am saddened by because even though they looked cool I wanted to stab what I saw 'cause it was me, hung out with friends, and kept myself fairly busy.

Funny how it feels like someone finally unpaused the world and things have started to move forward again.

I've learned that I have some favorite authors now. Those who I adore are Neil Gaiman, Chuck Palahnuik, and Dean Koontz. I see a bit of a pattern there, but I guess they just fit me somehow.

I'm really, really considering getting City of Villians. I feel kinda lost with my whole WoW thing. It's just not the same without Sam around and stuff. Hell, I don't even know if Adam's played at all within the last two months.

I want to watch lots of House.
Finish watching American Gothic.
...and I don't think I'll ever get to watch the Live-Action Nana movie. That saddens me a whole lot. Maybe I should call Reimi and see if she's still in town. School is getting closer.

Fuck. I don't like it when I was sure I had a post all worked out in my head and I start typing and it goes to shit.

...you just kicked that man's dog. What in the fuck is wrong with you?

Mood: lazy

Okay, so I'm a little gone.

Okay...
A lot gone.

...I miss Jesse, too.

But, hey, Happy New Years everybody. As I've heard, this year hasn't been too kind to a few people and for that I am sorry. But it's a new start and every cloud has it's silver lining, yes?

Everything seems to be having some frame rate issues, but I know it's just the booze taking control.

I feel awesome.

<3 to the world.

As the Merch said unto Santa: "I fucked your Dad."

Mood: drunk

SO, school doesn't start up until the 17th of January. That's kinda cool. Unless WebCT is lying to me... That wouldn't be very nice of it!

My grades turned out just fine this past semester. I was a tad bit worried, but everything was passed and I've still got me 3.0-ish GPA. Maybe I can get back to 3.5 sometime in the future. I think that would be a bit nifty.

I may make cookies later.

In case I don't update or anything, I might as well send out a Merry Christmas to everyone. I don't give a shit if it is a couple of days early! You will take it and you will like it.

Or else.

And I am rather disappointed that no one had a good yule log recipe they could share. I mean, seriously, no one? Pfft. I bet someone's holding out on me. Shame on you!

And now...adieu!

It's slipping. It's crooked. It's falling off.

Mood: lazy

Scary Quote Time!

Due to recent events and all that jazz, I'd like to put up a quote I stumbled upon when browsing in a fark thread. Please, do enjoy. It's deliciously frightening.

"Naturally, the common people don't want war, but after all, it is the leaders of a country who determine the policy, and it is always a simple matter to drag people along whether it is a democracy, or a facist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. This is easy. All you have to do is tell them they're being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in every country."

Hermann Goering, Hitler's Reich-Marshall at the Nuremburg Trials

ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn

Mood: scared

Today was a good day.

It was a lazy process getting up and the lounging about after it made it all the better. In a way, thanks to Adam's needs, two birds got taken care of with one stone. I've managed to scratch three people off my X-mas list and that makes me a tad bit happy.

I feel my holiday season mood kicking in and it always makes me miss home and want to give people lots of hugs... That and go crazy with the Christmas treats. Which reminds me, I really should go to the dentist soon enough.

I bought the 40 Year Old Virgin dvd today. I'm gonna be thinking of a special person in particular when I watch it tonight. It's all about the love, baby. <3 <3 <3

I've gotten a few more layout-ish ideas for the picture for a_hollow_year. It'll probably end up looking more like a comic book cover, but that's what I want. I want to kind of encompass the entire feel of her series with just one picture. There are three words I've been focusing on when thinking about it. They are: Angst, Drama, and Longing. I just hope I can pull it off. I don't know why, but I just feel like it'd be a nice thing to do and I wanna actually want to finish something I start.

I want to make a yule log. I did it before a long time ago for my French class in high school with a friend, but I'd like to try it again. Anyone know of a really good recipe? I looked for something on Food Network and the choices were pretty shitty. So, I'm calling out for help.

What is everyone doing for Christmas? This is really the first year where the whole thing is really up in the air. I don't really know if I like that or not, but I'll just have to see how that goes. So far I'm really enjoying December.

---and, even though you wouldn't know it, I took a break to watch the Presidental Address and then the first bit of Family Guy. Some of the things Bush said made some sense and then there were times when I completely disagreed with him. The whole damn situation just got a whole lot worse when he went to Iraq, so it's like he's really, desperately trying to fix his own mess...but he's being a little bitch about the fact that people are upset about his fuck-up in the first place. Plus, when he said what he's trying to do is for our future kids, I think he better re-think that since he up and started an unjust war, pissing on other countries' opinions when it came to the war, and by ruining our reputation by condoning torture and being an overall douche. ...and that's my little opinion on the matter. Not that it'll make any difference, but it feels just a little bit better overall. Maybe that's all that matters, eh?

So, I think we're gonna go on ahead and catch up on the rest of Lost in a little bit. Is it me, or did Walt just get a bazillion times creepier? 'Cause that whole water-logged hush speech is plenty crazy. Plus, it makes for understanding him impossible. You'd think he'd take the time to dry off or, you know, spit it out of his mouth... Oh well.

Bah, and I realized that the title of the song I'm listening to doesn't make sense. When I looked up the actual katakana for the title it didn't help make it make sense either. So, there you have it.

Oh, and a giant fuckin' hug to mowi. 'Cause I can and I want her to feel better.

ROCK THE CASBAH!

Mood: amused

Hooray for the Senate!
Hoorah for school being out!
Huzzah for Friday!

Oh, go see King Kong.
I don't know if there was really a point behind this post, but it's going out anyways.

Come on down, bitches!

Mood: energetic

Okay, so I really don't feel like sleeping.

I'm actually not too happy right now. Sometimes people mention things that hurts others even though they don't really realize it. I suppose something like that took place tonight. I suppose the problem really lies with my own idea of my self worth. Which, as it turns out, isn't that much at all.

I can be a temporary holder.
Not quite up to par but will do for the meantime. Well, at least until something better comes along.

Fuck.

I really hate how ridiculous I can be sometimes...but I just can't help it.

Fuck me. Fuck me sideways.

Mood: depressed

First final of the week taken care of.

Preparation for the next one shall begin tomorrow whenever I decide to wake up. I've gotta get used to the idea of not waking up for classes for a whole month. I'm sure I'll endure through such a hardship. *snort*

I haven't really made a real post in awhile, so I thought I was due for one.

Remember that 2-D class I've been mentioning a lot lately? Well, all the hard work for it finally paid off. My team managed to win best game overall at the contest they had at school. I got my hand on some cool swag and I patted myself on the back. I think we all deserved it. I really couldn't have asked for a better group of guys to help me pull everything together. Hopefully, for the 3-D class, I'll get to work with all of them again.

I did a self portrait of myself that I didn't actually hate so much. That's a big thing since I usually don't like to stare at myself for hours. There's that whole not really liking what I see sorta thing.

I decided to do some artwork for someone. Hell, let's just say it's a_hollow_year. I don't know why, but I haven't really been able to come up with anything good to say. When I try to it's usually something pretty damn stupid or overly silly. So, thanks to that My LJ thingy, I learned her b-day is coming up and I could try to make a present. I doubt she'll scope out this entry, so I think it's safe to say the surprise bit won't be at all ruined.

Here's to hoping it doesn't suck ass.

Had some fun Tarot readings done this afternoon to kill time before the final and I must say it was interesting. I came up with a lot of illogical questions, so nothing really major was asked. I kept it insanely complicated and the cards certainly reflected that.

And I'm probably going to start rambling on from here on out. Might as well cut it short and be happy that I got this far. whoo.

SHRINKAGE.

Mood: accomplished

WELL.

I certainly don't know what's gotten into me.

But, hm, UNF.

alltheselittlebitsaresoachyit'scrazy.

Mood: naughty

Glorious.

I have enjoyed myself this past weekend. I delivered bruises of love, learned of delicious scandals, and had some macaroni salad that was to die for. All-in-all, not a bad trip back home. Of course, the amount of killing that took place while I was there was a tad bit disturbing. Especially when evidence of it was brought into the church and set on a pew with little bloody, meaty bits still dangling from it.

My cousins, a particular branch of them really, seem to like getting their booze on. I guess that's what happens when you're in a town where the in thing to do is sit in the Wal-Mart/Heart of Their Universe parking lot and just talk. I mean, you can do that at home, but it is Wal-Mart. Compared to here it was green and it actually rained from time to time. Hell, right before I managed to fly there it had even snowed! Not something amazing there, but it's some that is such a rare treat for me.

No one preached to me. Except, well, a preacher...but I went to the church willingly so I let that one slide.

I realized that it's very uncomfortable for me to be left alone in Me-Maw's house. I don't like being surrounded by all the familiar smells and furniture bits that make me want to cry. A lot. One day maybe I will build a time machine and prolong the sorrow as much as I can.

I'm happy I went there for Thanksgiving. I do miss everyone up there terribly. Well, except for Ricky and Brad, but don't tell them that. Their presences annoy the hell out of me. That and they're the types that never change. Brad especially...since college didn't do a damn thing for him apparently. I really wish it had.

And it's my fault for waiting until I have to go to class to start this entry. Maybe I'll finish it up later on in another post. MAYBE.

Oh, and I have a plan for something. It's devious and oh-so delicious I can't believe my mind came up with it. It's sheer brilliance I tell you!

WHAT IS THAT ON YOUR SHOULDER?!

Mood: cheerful

I am stressed out for today! Yay!

I can't take a nap 'cause there's still so much more to be done and two hours of sleep for Jen is not good. Nope, it really isn't. My hands are shaking a little bit. That's...okay, yes? Getting nervous and twitchy can be a good thing...?

Maybe?

*sigh*

I'M A GOD WARRIOR!

Mood: rushed

Ah. Everything that could have possibly went wrong this evening did go horribly wrong.

First it was the being a tad bit late. There was random I-35 traffic...that wasn't so bad. Annoying maybe, but still not at all a rare thing. Then there was the getting pulled over. I only got a warning thank gawd and I think I'll certainly remember the speed limit on campus. The drive to the place didn't take too long and I made it in good time. I think that was one of the only really good things that happened. 'Cause as soon as we got into the parking lot...some lady backed into my car. Really, what in the fuck is it about my car that makes people just reverse into it?! The woman just got out of her car in a rage (after stopping right in the middle of the garage and backing up, mind you) and yells at us! Slamming her car door and exclaiming over and over again the word "Idiots!" Even though it was completely her fault. In. Every. Way. Possible. Plus, I had four eye-witnesses and she has none. So fuck her. Anyways, we exchange information and I eventually make a claim later on that night.

Thing is, my car isn't fit for driving anymore. So, I call Jesse and he made his way there eventually. There was traffic. Again, that's something that is never really a shocker here in the metroplex. So we do a little bit of shopping I got my Castro hat and have an okay time browsing around. Other things happen and eventually I have to go back to the ATM to get money I owed to Phoenix. I mean, we were right there at Spike so now was the time to do it. At the ATM...god, one of the most creepy things ever occured there. I was there, getting money and this guy passed me and then doubled back. He started talking about now I have money for dinner I'm assuming he was refering to the two of us eating together? and I was all like "...um, not really?" So, anyways, I happened to not wear a bra this particular evening and the man went on to point it out.

And he went on and on about it. Oh, and not even trying to be respectful in any fucking way either. He kept on complimenting my breasts and then moved on to bribing me to going home with him and/or doing anything with him. He offered weed and smokes, etc. He kept doing this as I was walking back to my friends...and in a very rushed manner, I must say. So, I managed to get away from him and just tried my best not to burst out into a full-blown sprint to the safety of my group.

Anywho, Jesse got there and it turns out that my car won't be going anywhere anytime soon without the aid of a tow truck. Well, the five of us girls weren't going to fit into Jesse's Honda with two extra people already riding with him. So, we called Adam and he made it just in time to help out with the driving us around. Thanks to Roy having AAA, the towing was free and we managed to make it back to Lewisville in one piece. The girls and I ended up eating at IHOP and we still had a pretty decent time.

I am totally fucking determined to have a better outting the next time around. Totally. Fucking. DETERMINED.

Oh, oh, and the driver's side door won't open now, either. It was just the icing on the cake, really.

I was dead at the time! I was on the moon...with Steve!

Mood: drained

Oh, god, this song. It certainly does get an UNF! from me. Yes, yes it certainly does.

I got my hair cut. I fuckin' love it. I'm glad I took the risk and now I feel so playful and stuff.

I'm going out on the town with Eriko, Kyoko, Reimi, and some other Japanese girl that Kyoko invited along for the ride. I hope everything goes smoothly and that I find their damn dorm building without incident. I'm always paranoid that I'm gonna run someone over when I'm driving around campus. And fuck it all if I can't find my other sock. I've searched all about the house and have come up with nothing. It's rather frustrating.

I don't get to go to Wizard World this year. I've gotta stick to my project and get as much done possible before next Tuesday. I hope that the whole thing doesn't completely blow when this is all over. And just think of it, I may get to fuck up horribly in 3D next semester! Joy!

Mrf.

I think I'll go back to hunting now.
I'm on a fucking mission.

But, OH, this song...

GET TO THE CHOPPAH!!

Mood: satisfied

It's been one of those weeks.

Were shit seems to keep piling up and you've got no choice but to take the whole heap of it. It's kind of funny how it's been five straight days of it, too. Usually Friday brings goodness and this week it certainly didn't deliver.

Hm. At least I made some new Japanese friends and got some bubble tea. I think I got Mai and Kyoko hooked on the Green Tea/Coconut smoothie mix. They tried it and both did the cute, "Oishiiii!" thing with wide-eyes. Plus, I think I found my new haircut in one of the magazines at the Bubble Tea place. I should go back there and take a picture of it with my camera phone.

Oh, yeah, I got invited to join the National Scholars Honor Society. Whatever in the hell that means. I guess it's good?

...and I'm getting all 'beh' again. I'll just stop typing.

Bobaganoosh. ...or however you spell that fucking word.

Mood: depressed